17th February 2016

Hello Sam, I hope you are well and enjoying school. I think about you lots son and I was off work today, I took the day off to do some painting and I was thinking about you a lot. I remember the time when you were born Sam, its a feeling I will never forget and one day hope you will experience this feeling too when you have children of your own and make me a proud grandfather. Fatherhood is strange son, to know the little bundle of joy (which was you) will grow up and experience the world. When you become a father you know there is someone on this earth who you would be willing to die for without premeditation but also someone you live for. I worry about how you are son, I am not there to give you the words of encouragement that I want to. I am not there to cheer you when your sad and watch that beautiful smile of yours light up my life when your happy, but I will tell you this son, you are always in my heart and never does an hour pass when I don't think about you and never do I make a plan for the future without considering you in it too. I love you Sam, always have and always will. Its not a choice of mine that I am not there with you just now but I promise you I will never shop fighting to be in your life. You are my son Sam, I am your father and the only father you will ever have, I am so proud of you son and I am trying hard to be part of your life again. If anyone ever tells your different then they are wrong Sam, I have never and never will give up of you son, you are part of me and I am part of you, love you always. Do you remember this picture Sam? You wired up a radio, your a clever boy Sam and I am so very proud you are my son.

Love you always son....Daddy x